I have been dreading the prospect of January for sometime now, with the looming threat of an English exam, two University Interviews and oh my driving test to add to the chaos. Having a cold also is not helping my mind that is in over drive. So this afternoon I decided to sit down and write my written essay for my UCA interview that is in two weeks time. This is two weeks of nail biting and sleepless nights as I ponder over what is to come on that day.
Me like many other people self doubt themselves. Yet today I am experiencing a prolonged session of self doubting, questioning myself whether I am good enough for a degree? Do I know enough to be interviewed? I suppose this is just common to fear something that your heart is set on that you begin to doubt yourself.
So as I sat down with determination in my mind today I battled my way through half of this essay feeling like I was accomplishing something I suddenly hit writers block. What was a fluid stream of thoughts in my mind became a frozen lake of despair as I crumbled and sank into the keys of my laptop. With a frazzled and tormented mind here's hoping January goes well for me (fingers crossed so tightly it hurts).
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